I like other things too you know

First of all can i just ask .. does everybody else hate it when your parents ask you a question during an argument and when you answer back they yell , " don't talk back to me ".......but dude you ask me a question I'm mean i have been going to school for the past fifteen years learning to answer questions . have i wasted fifteen years?. while we are on the subject why can i never be right after all your the one who is always saying , " you think your right all the time well you know no one is right all the time ," wow parents i must say are kinda the biggest hypocrites around . one thing i know is that I'm never having children in my life i can't imagine raising someone like me i would probably loose it and begin to go to Scientology lessons. Anyway i'm getting to focused on something else today's topic is...i like to do other things too you know

As some of my friends know.. the ones that i can trust to laugh at me privately and not publicly, i like to write poetry . I have been doing it since a mastered the concept of angst, hopelessness and irony also known as life.i like doing it , its a way of hiding my deepest darkest dreams and fears without them crushing me from the inside which would ultimately turn me into emotional black hole. so what the topic in this . well the thing is I'm black . hm mm you still don't get it . Well you see its like this, black people never do anything that we are not stereotyped to do. Being Loud , check , doing the most ignorant think you can possibly do like putting spinning rims on you car and not even paying your rent of children's nappies , check . So as you can see life is very hard for black people who have other interest because no only society frown upon those who go against these set stereotypes but also black people who are mad that you are not acting 'black' anymore. for them you have broken the mould and have therefore have betrayed them in a Judas executed style and that is just understating the situation.This means that it is hard to be individualistic in a community that harbours a grudge on anyone trying to be different( as in any other community but this is case is extreme) so you have to conform into the 'black' mould that has been already set . it is depressing because this means that no one can be really reach their potential as they don't want to be outcast in a community they actually love and thrive in .Evidence of this can be found in densely populated black community where if a boy who has a passion for piano's instead of shanks will probably seen as a 'gaylord'. since i lived in hertfordshire since i arrived in England black people have questioned my accent because its not a typical urban London accent. .even white people are a bit surprised they expect me to talk like dis blood. Therefore my accent makes black people suspicious as it is not of the communial stereotype and i have a feeling it because they think I'm better than them which i don't of course.So what does this have to do with me and my poetry well, to be honest I'm frightened that my black community won't accept me for being the neo -soul hippy poetic sista that i am. just the same as they won't accept a black guy who just hangs out with white people because he is a traitor to the black people. i think this should stop because as long as black people conform to this stereotype we wont be finally free because at the moment we are still chained mentally since we won't break the mould. We won't explore the potential we could truly find in our self because were are to scared what the next black ignoramus is going to say.Although I'm saying all of this I'm scared of breaking the mould too but I'm going to try and solve that......to be continued