Be kind don't rewind

lol i have been playing my new favourite song over and over and over for the past two days so my roomies probably hate me by now . it is a song by Janelle monae called many moons . It's such a different song and it appeals to my neo soul ears . Anyway I've been holed up in my room revising . I'm only in my first year but already i'm feeling seriously stupid for even attempting to finish this year with just 40%. i'm still also thinking what i'm going to do with my future. i'm still an unmotivated person who just feels the need to just get by . I want to be a writer but i can never be bothered to either start or finish a project that i'm doing . So i always have these ideas swimming in my head and they have no where to go so they just build up and up .So i have decided that this summer is the first time i finish at least one book . I'm also going to improve my poetry which at the moment is none existent due to the lack of inspiration or life experience happening in my life at the moment......Anyway let me get back to my books cause even Jesus healing hands could help this head case

p.s i want to formally apologise for my grammer i know its sucks lol but thats the reason why i going to school for fool